And How are you today?

[Cruentus]

Here we can post how we are feeling at this certain point and time. Post here every day, once a week whenever, just make sure it isnt twice in the same day.

Today and this morning is horrid. Currently I am very depressed because alot of things in the corse of 20 minutes just blew up. One moment I was talking to Hannah(my earlier stated GF)over the phone and she was crying. I was doing my best to try and calm her. Also she was at home so she was using webcam. All the sudden she dropped the phone and turned the cam off. I heard a scream and her brother was yelling at me through the phone. He asked me what the hell I did. I asked him what was going on. He said hannah had tried to hang herself. Hannahs whole family blames me for all of this because for like the last three days both of us have done nothing but talk to each other and spend time together. So after about an hour of her family blaming me, I have started to blame myself. I finally tried to sleep at 4AM but failed horribly. I can't sleep at all, and I just want her to be ok. Also, it hurts alot that everyone is blaming me including myself.

Hopefully, until next time,

~Cruentus~

 

[Trane]

Smh Keep ya head up man, That's a crazy situation. She's just going thru some things and she felt dying was the only way out. Just explain to her that dying is never the rigtht way and shes going to get thru what shes goin thru, God will take his part and help her.

 

[Cruentus]

Trane, im just saying, if you are going to post here, try to, you know, do what you are supposed to do in the thread.

 

[Trane]

[Was just trying to help you out]


My day today is ok so far,My GF was here for a week and left today. Seems like everything is going to go well..Until my drunkin mom comes home. Hope she lays off the drinks today.

 

[Daesy]

Coping. When things don't go your way you want to give up. I miss my ex. But i keep living. Even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday. No matter how hard it gets i try to remember that taking life one day, one hour, one second at a time. My day went badly. But have to say i'm thankful for the little things i have.

~Daesy~

 

[Jing]

right now im kind of tired and kind of not.... i have been in a weird mood lately for some reason...

 

[Aaura]

Today I Feel Really Sad...My Back Hurts, And We Had Alot Of Bikers Come Into Our Store Today....Yah It Was A Long Day. And My Mom Left For The Harley Run So I Have To Stay Here And Watch The Resort. Its So Boreing. I Just Want To Go To Sleep.

 

[Nitz]

I feel kinda sick.. I just slept for a few hours, so I feel like I got some energy back... I was pretty drained after today's project. I got 2 more days.. and hopefully they go well.

But my nose is kinda runny LOL.. so I feel sick.. yet it's freaking hot today... I just hope my body heals up!

 

[The Legendary Saviour]

I'm feeling..absolutely not motivated to do anything *yawn*.
I have been hanging around all day doing nothing useful, even though there is so much I could/ should do. Wish I could be arsed to, but I just can't.

 

[Trane]

Just woke up, Hmm. Mom woke me up asking have I seen her gin -Rolls Eyes, But other then that im kinda ok.

 

[Aaura]

I am Laughing At Legedary Saviors Avi's, They All Confuse Me.... And I'm So Tired Had To Come To Stupid Work

 

[Cruentus]

Well it is all over. She ended it. She says she says we took things to fast, she's to young for love, she wants to be free, oh and you can't forget her friend behind her feeding her the words. I forget the most important and most insulting one, she says I care to much. Needless to say my day has been a peice of shit. This is the third time in 2 days she has broken up with me. Usually she has me call or she calls me crying and wants to get back together. This time I honestly think it's different. She was something different. I will admit even though my age I have had a few girlfriends. But she was special. I actually loved her. Not the love where you just say it because you are with that person. The love where you truly think you understand the person, how you would die for them. I am still talking to her to see if this is her final decission. If it is I really don't know what I'd do. But if it isn't, I'm in love with her so. . . I know im stupid for even concidering that. She is telling me that all of her love that she ever had for me was fake. I really hope she is lying just to convince herself. But I haven't cried in a long time. I am a very hard person to make to make cry. But she broke me. We have been together for 3 weeks and just in this past week she has made me cry three times. I hardly ever cry, and she just broke me. She is killing me inside and I hate it but I still love her. no matter what i'd still love her. I have a feeling if we dont get back together, it will take me a very long time to get over. For the last few days i've done everything I can. Even when she went somewhere I spent a 45 minute long distance call with her. It was expensive and my parents want to kill me, but I love her. I would do anything for this girl and she just tears me apart. She broke me and I cant get over that. I fell in love with this girl. . .and she just broke me.

All the Best,

~Cruentus~

 

[Trane]

-Sighs, My girlfriend thinks shes pregnant. So my day not going to good right now, I'm to young(16) to have kids. If she is pregnant i will take care of my child but I'm gonna have to get my self really together.

 

[Daesy]

I went to work today. I went off. I have to explain to these ppl i can't do everything. They make me sick...I need a new job. Oh well. I think imma sleep in tomorrow. I'm sorry Nick. Things will get better.

~DAESY~

 

[Cruentus]

Well I found out that Hannah really meant buisness today. There will be no more me and her so I am still depressed. I didn't sleep at all last night I was on the phone with my friend Marquis. Im glad he is always there for people. He was having a bad day to so we helped each other. I dont have as much to post today but Hannah still wants to be friends. After all she has put me through I'm not sure I really want to do this. But as soon as we broke up her friend Mary started hitting on me and calling me cute. And she told me her bra size immediatly. So yea. . .

Til Next Time,

~Cruentus~

 

[Daesy]

Welp as you can see i've been Modded. I take this job seriously. But my problem is i have ideas but i dont wanna just spring them on everyone who RP's and they get all mad at me cuz i changed something they liked.

 

[Cruentus]

I am still depressed due to prior events but I am doing better. Her and I have been talking a little bit and we are acting like nothing happened. It hurts, but atleast I get to talk to her. Today she finally gave me a reason. There is someone else. She left me for another guy. Someone I know. That hurt worse then when she actually left me. Her friend is still hitting on me which isn't right. Also one of my ex's is sort of hitting on me but sort of being compationate. I really can't like either one of them back. My mind won't let me. Also my body isn't ready for it.

Also as Daesy said, I have also been modded. I also take this seriously. If you need anything just ask.

See you then,

~Cruentus~

 

[Sergeant Dreamer]

I went to the meeting yesterday to see if my division is going back to Iraq or not. The last time I went it was my second tour, but this is my third and they all expect me to be experienced, but the truth is I'm not, I'm scared. Outside the city of *CLASSIFIED* We spent all night sitting in the back of the truck freezing. I’ve never been that cold for that length of time, and everyone was praying for the sun to rise. It eventually did and we did our last minute preparations to cross the border. There would be over four hundred vehicles in our convoy and we were fourth from the front. There was a "scout" vehicle in the front that would drive a few miles out from us to see if anything was going on. After that, there were two HUMVEE’s with .249 machine guns and us with our M4’s (mini M16’s.) Right across the border there was an Iraqi town we must have bombed the heck out of. Kids would run out of the broken down houses and wave at us as we passed. They were known to pull out handguns so we had them in our sights at all times. Unfortunately one of the convoys right behind us ran one of them over and killed him. Most of the older people in the town stayed back and watched from a distance. I guess they were used to us pointing our rifles at them. Once we got out of the town the rest of the trip was through open desert. You could see the oil fires in the distance, and every once in a while a US vehicle that had been ambushed and shot up. When the firing got close to our humvee, I started to cry because I was so scared. Even now, the reson I fight is to stay alive.

 

[Aaura]

I Am Really Happy For Daesy, And Umm I Feel The Same Way Crue Does About One Of My Ex's Cuz He Lives Here And So Do I.... Its Real HArd...
Keep It Real

Aly

 

[Trane]

So yeah, My past few days has been very bad. I woke up, walked outside and seen my homie get shot. He goes to the hospital, Everyone on my block is like what happen, is he alive? The cops told us that he didn't make it so everyone was crying and stuff, But then! My other neighbor who went to the hospital with him said he was alive,He never died. So the cops lied, **** the police. Thanks.